As far back as I can remember I have always had big breasts, I remember even at primary school being picked on about my breasts, being called names, laughed out, and being embarrassed about playing sports or swimming. As I got older they got bigger, at high school I was massive all my friends were envious of my breasts, cause they didn't have any, even the guys liked them little did they know I was suffering in silence. When I got pregnant at 16 my breasts were out of control, they just grew, and grew, and they haven't gone done at all since. In 1997 I hurt my back, getting off the couch of all things, from then on life has been tough, I have been in and out of hospital, and had doctors tell me it was all in my head and to get over it. Finally I had an MRI and they found that I have a degenerate spinal disease which is where the disc's in my back are slowly grumbling away, I was working full time and my specialist told me that if I didn't stop working and do nothing for 2 years I would be in a wheel chair by the time I was 35, he told me the only cure was a new spine which is out of the question and the other problem I had was my breasts as the weight of them was pulling my neck down, and causing a great deal of pain.

About 3 months ago I was having chest pains and dizzy spells, my last one was at work which really scared me I went to the doctor that day, and she told me I was on my way to having a heart attack, I didn't believe her at first, being only 30 but she was serious, so we put in a major plan for me to loose weight rapidly, so there was to be no potatoes, bread, pasta, rice, which to anyone are the main foods you eat, I lost 15kgs, in 3mths, but now have hit the dreaded plato, I am still working, and I have been walking in the mornings lunch times, and after work, and was intending to play softball in October but my doctor told me I had to stop that cause since I have lost the weight, my breasts haven't gone down at all so they are putting more pressure on my neck, she has suggested I start aqua jogging so I have my first session next Monday hopping that that will help. It is really my last hope of exercise, and to getting over the plato I am in, I am 5.2 weigh 100kgs, now my doctor told me I need to drop down to about 75kgs, but I would be happy with 80kgs, with that weight I wouldn't have so much pressure on my heart, but if my breasts don't go down, I am going to be way out of proportion.

The last time I went out was about 3mths ago, and the first thing someone said to me was how do you carry those around, which embarrassed me and after that I was all down hill from there. I have a 13 1/2yr old daughter who loves swimming and biking, and walking I never go swimming with her or walk or do much with her, cause I just get so sore, what sort of a mother is that, not even been able to do things with your own child. I love horse riding but haven't been for years, bouncing around does nothing for my back or neck. At work I find sitting extremely painful, I don't go out with my work mates cause finding cloths to fit, is near impossible. And I feel embarrassed and awkward, I haven't had a boyfriend for years, the only thing they are interested are my breasts. These days I feel isolated, and lonely, I know I shouldn't let my breasts get in the way of my life but, to do anything is a huge effort, to walk around the supermarket, walk to work, drive the car, sitting, standing, just living, I feel I am only 30 and my life is slipping away before my eyes.

The public waiting lists are long, and you could be on there for years, and to go private, it costs a fortune, I'm a single working mum, just like a lot of people out there, and where am I going to get the money to get that done. Only if I win lotto and that is not likely. I shouldn't have to wait, I know there are car crash victims, and burn victims, and heart patients that need operations, but for me being thirty and told I might have a heart attack or that I could end up in a wheel chair, I think that is pretty serious.

I know after the documentary last night Top Heavy, the doctors and surgeons are going to be bomb barded with letters and phone calls, some will be real and some won't. Whether it makes it harder for the ones who really do have medical problems to get a breast reduction, well we will have to wait and see.

For me there has to be a better life out there, without the constant, sore back, burning and aching neck, migraines, tiredness, posture problems, embarrassment of buying cloths, and bras, walking down the street or into a room knowing people are staring at me and having 5kgs of unnecessary weight attached to my body.