Picture this you are 13 years old and already 5 ft 10 curvy and size 34 F breasts - I didnt look much like a teenager and thats when the trouble started. My breasts have always been a nightmare to me, I was physically assaulted most days at school by my male classmates - I was the butt of everyones jokes including my teachers and any man that saw me felt he could say what he pleased or touch whatever he wanted. Needless to say I got very depressed at a very young age. I hated my physical appearance - I hated the way men older than my mum would lear at me - I just hated myself!!! I started eating to try and 'even' up my increasingly top heavy figure, but that only made me fat and miserable.

By the age of 20 I was wearing a very ill fitting 18 G bra - which my Mums best friend made for me, I think now I was probably more like the II, I am now. I stopped playing competative netball at 13, and became more and more introverted, then the pain started!!! Everyday I would have a neck, shoulder, back ache and always had headaches - my doctor just told me that was my lot and that his daughter would kill for a figure like mine - little did he now that I was dying inside because of my breasts.

I put up with this problem until 1 year after my daughter Olivia was born, my boobs were so large I couldnt even breast feed her as I needed two hands to lift my breasts off her tiny wee face, and therefore had no hands spare to hold my beautiful baby. All I ever wanted to do was breast feed - but it was utterly impossible and so horribly embarrasing, I was too ashamed to even feed her infront of my mum and partner. After Olivias birth my pain just got worse and worse and I remember thinking ' Surely someone can do something for me' as private surgery was financially just out of the question.

And then I saw it - the Doco which changed my life 'Top Heavy'. Here were other women in the same boat as me - I had never before met anyone as large as I am so it was so fantastic to know that I wasnt alone. I spoke to my Physio about a referral from my GP, and he told me that he thought I must have been terrified of surgery or surely I would have done something years ago. So I went to my new GP, not the one from years ago, and she was so supportive, wrote the referral letter right there on the spot.

I saw a surgeon on 20/12/02 - just 3 months after the referral was sent, and he has put me on the waiting list here in Christchurch. He also said that my case was about as bad as it could be and he would try to push me through a lot quicker than normal. So know I just have to sit back and wait for the life changing surgery that will at last give me the life I feel has been robbed from me by being so incredibly top heavy. I am 34 II bra size.